"I'm water, I flow."

I feel this energy rising within me -- an energy that welcomes only chaotic experiences. I don't think I'm totally OK with chaos as of yet. Just looking from past experiences and knowing who I am -- someone who is not good with change -- but I do feel the need to be more stoic nowadays. Recognizing that two truths can exist at the same time and that I don't need to internalize everything. Though at the same time I also feel like I'm slowly chipping away at my empathy and I'm afraid of that. Another thing is I think this perspective is also good for my self-growth. This makes me feel like I shouldn't be scared of the unknown; it's a "let's fuck around and see" attitude. Which is super great so I don't know. I'm just going to surrender to this energy. "I'm water, I flow" is my mantra now. That's a quote from Connor Roy from Succession. He also wants us to know; "Connor Roy was very interested in politics from a young age." Now that's where he and I differ very much.